18 May 2010

milestone.

ok, this is probably much too much information, but i just put my sweet, almost one year old, and now, weaned little girl to bed, and so many emotions are welling up inside of me. in some ways i feel liberated, but my heart is also so sad. it's strange, because there have been many times when nursing has been painful, inconvenient, tiring, strange, and many more things, but regardless of all that, tonight it brought me to tears knowing that it's over. i guess it's a tangible indicator of just how fast she's changing, and there's probably a deeper level at which i almost feel like she needs me less now because of this change. of course, my logical self knows that's not true.. but i'm sure you know where i'm coming from. believe people when they say they grow up in a flash.

man, i love her more than i thought possible.

5 comments:

Valentina said...

you brought me to tears. i cant believe how big she is. i always knew you would be an amazing mother. i cant wait to have my own little babies one day and learn from you. i love you both so so much.

Kim Smith said...

Congrats! That is a big milestone indeed. I am proud of you for sticking with it for so long! It is bittersweet for sure! Love ya girl!

Mandy said...

Yes Alinna it was always nice to be done but I also always felt very sad. :) Glad you were able to do it for so long. Ruby does still need you and will need you in so many other ways you just wait and see! Look forward to seeing you tomorrow night.

Bad Luck Mermaid said...

wow! i'd never thought about that milestone before... what an amazing, if bittersweet time. she really is growing up so fast! you're such a wonderful mama, alinna! it's so neat to get a little sneak peek at what motherhood will be like. i hope someday we can be like you guys!! :)

Kara @ KSS said...

Aw that's so sweet Alinna. :) And we just talked about this today! I can totally understand why it's bittersweet. :)

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