committed..

my friend mikel emailed me about a new website she came across and really loved. it's called girltalk, and although i have to admit that my cynical side thought the name was kinda cheesy i'm really excited about what i hope will come out of it for me. they have clubs that you can join, and today i signed up for the 5 o'clock club. by signing up, i've committed to waking early (you can choose your own early morning time) to spend quality, alone time with God. now, some people may think like i have pretty much my whole life whenever there was talk of spending early morning time with the Lord. "i'm not a morning person.. i'd rather have that time in the afternoon or before bed.. who says my time with God will be best spent in the morning".. so on and so forth. these are all things i've thought before, and although i don't think that having time with God in the morning is in any way a must, i made a bit of a [personal] realization while looking over the 5 o'clock club challenge. it's so hard for me to think about waking up any earlier than i already have to everyday.. and because of that i find myself going into something like this already assuming that i'll fail. so it makes me not want to do it. which, in my opinion, makes it even more of a sacrifice and challenge. because, slowly but surely over the past year or so, i've come to realize that i am not very disciplined. if i want to eat or drink something even though i've made a pact with myself not to, i usually do it. if i plan to wake up at a certain time in the morning, knowing that i need to or should, i pretty must always hit the snooze and make a mental excuse as to why it's not really that important that i do what i had planned on the night before. if i decide not to watch tv, log into facebook as much, or do whatever for a certain amount of time, more often than not it doesn't happen. any time i've decided to try and read through the whole bible or even spend consistent time with the Lord on a daily basis.. you guessed it, right out the window. i have just gotten into the habit of not pushing myself for some reason.. i've become satisfied with what is instead of straining for what i know is better. and because of those reasons [and so many more], i'm posting this on my blog.. and asking for accountability [and a swift kick in the pants, if needed :)] from any of you who read this and want to help me out. to start off, there is a 28 days challenge for the 5 o'clock club. so, starting tomorrow.. i'll be setting my alarm for 7 a.m.